Flow of Madness

I was having a conversation with my friend about Sid. He brought up the fact that Sid seems like the kind of guy who needs to be told how to feel. In some respects I agree. Sid is definitely not the type of guy who is introspective and he is also quite passive. He is more a reactor of life than a fighter of life. Thank god he has that sense of humor to carry him through. However was it that Sid was fickle? Or was it that he simply did not understand what love means? 

When we meet Sid he is hopelessly obsessed with Michelle. A childhood friend and the girlfriend of his best mate Tony (whom he wishes he could be more like.) He has been devoted to her in his fantasies and has declared his love for her on multiple occasions. I believe that Sid fundamentally does not understand what love means or even how love feels. I agree that he definitely cares about Michelle and he was without a doubt attracted to her. However love comes from a deeper place and I do not think that Sid was truly ever in love with Sid. He even admits this himself when he confronts Cassie in Series 2. 

In the middle of Series 1 Sid sees that picture of Cassie that Maxxie draws. He comments that Cassie is beautiful and Maxxie told him she is beautiful. My friend argues that Sid more than likely thought to himself that Cassie likes him and Michelle does not. Maxxie thinks she is beautiful so she is beautiful and I totally missed that. I will just be with her. Like he was told that it was okay to like Cassie so he started to. 

Sid though in my opinion has tunnel vision. He has this infatuation with Michelle and he is not noticing anything but his feelings for her. He is also the type of guy who does not pick up on on subtle hints of attraction to him. Due to self image issues and also good old fashioned cluelessness on Sid’s part. I see that moment with Maxxie as not a “settlement” but instead of Sid waking up to the possibility of other things besides waiting for Michelle. 

I don’t know what do you think? Sid fickle in love? Or Sid learning to love?