Flow of Madness

(Source: falchuk, via flawedxdesign)

I feel like I have a different view of Rich than other people sometimes. It might be my insane emotional attachment to him. It could be I see some of my friends and myself even sometimes in him. However I feel like I can understand him. As much as one can understand a fictional character they didn’t create. He just feels real to me. 

Some people have said that Rich isn’t metal anymore. Whenever I see that I honestly get upset. Because as we get older we start to realize that who we are is rarely defined by our clothing. Sometimes our fashion changes without us really thinking about it based on maturity or just a change in taste. What made Rich metal was not what he wore…it was who he was. It is how he sees the world, how he carries himself, and his personality that made Rich a metalhead. His close was just one layer to him. I do admit I miss that leather jacket of his. However I think he is still Grace’s metal man he just needs someone to light the flame or just pay attention. 

I honestly see this beauty in Rich. He is a great person and ultimately he would do anything for his friends and for Grace. Part of Rich’s mentality and how he is feeling stems from his feeling that he failed Grace. Especially his feelings in Episode 2. He feels he failed her. Failed to keep her safe. Failed to see her in hospital. I imagine he still feels that way and I hope he talks about it a little bit in Monday’s episode. It feels so strange to be so far away from a character’s emotional life especially when that person was so close to the victim of tragedy. I know that Rich is hurting and he is trying so hard to find the beauty in life. Just like Grace told him. However he has lost that fight. He looks tired. I hope that Liv obnoxiously wakes him up and in return I hope that Rich knocks sense into Liv.  Then together I hope they move to find closure and to deal with the emotions they feel. 

Rich is honestly the type of guy I have always pictured myself with. Which is why Skins has ruined my life by creating him. Rich is a bit of a life ruiner. I have always pictured myself with a realistic, sarcastic, loyal, old soul, intelligent, passionate, snarky, teasing, awesome, and part of a bromance. All those qualities Rich has I admire. Rich cares about things. He doesn’t run. He meets challenges either with brute anger or with his intellect. He is a survivor and he is a fighter. Right now he’s quiet…but I know he’s still metal. You can’t change something you innately are. Clothes are phases that one goes through. Who you are at the core…well that’s not a phase. From day one Rich has been who he is only he has matured and widened his circle. However he is still Rich. 

Long hair or short hair. Leather jacket or jean jacket. He’s still Rich. He just needs to find something to fight for again. 

This post should come with a warning just saying. 

(Source: grintson-feels, via frankybluerichards)